So, first, it’s weigh-in day. Unfortunately, I forgot to get on the scale this morning. Eek. Seriously, I thought about it, but forgot. Oops. But, I was on the scale yesterday so it’s not all bad. I’ll just use yesterday’s weight and call it good. 
So, yesterday I weighed in at 206.2. That’s a 1 pound loss from last week.
Now, about that book. I had to stop reading it for a bit. NOT because it’s bad — I still think it’s one of the BEST books I’ve read in a while and probably the best weight loss book I’ve EVER read. But, it was bringing up some emotions I really wasn’t able to deal with right now. I was getting overwhelmed. So, I started reading some other books to calm myself down a bit. (Hey, I never
said I wasn’t weird or crazy LOL.) I will continue reading the book. I’m trying to decide if I want to start over or start where I left off. There are some exercises (mental exercises not physical exercises) that I skipped over when I was reading it. I’m trying to decide if I want to go back and reread the parts I’ve read and take notes/do the exercises or if I want to just continue on where I left off.
If you haven’t looked at the book…I still recommend you do that! I still think the book rocks!
Remember that giveaway I told you about? I didn’t win. 
I never win things so it’s not a big surprise to me. But, I’m actually really sad about this one. I REALLY wanted this prize. A LOT. But, thanks to everyone who entered and mentioned my name (I didn’t know I had that many fans so thanks!). I’ll get over losing but I have to admit, I’m kind of bummed. I didn’t realize HOW much I wanted to win that until I saw that I didn’t win it.
So, there you have it.
I mentioned the book I’m reading yesterday. I was only able to read 1/2 of chapter 3 last night. But, I have to say, this book is really making me think. I don’t know if it will be enough to change my thinking (my brain’s a pretty complex piece of work) but it’s really making me think. I said I wanted a book to change how I think about dieting and this journey I’m on, well, this one is definitely doing it. I still recommend picking the book up. I really want to get more feedback on it and see what others think.
Seriously, please sign up for the giveaway I posted about. (If you don’t want it, sign up and have it sent to me — I’ll take it it!)
Also — check out my first Fat Chick guest post. Pretty cool, huh.
Last night my sister, sister-in-law, SIL’s mom, and I took my oldest nephew and niece to see Disney on Ice. It’s become somewhat of a tradition. We get dressed up, go to dinner, then the show. Last night they decided on Old Spaghetti Factory. Being a good Fat Chick I looked up the menu before we went and realized there was nothing on the menu that I wanted. NOTHING. I do love their salad and bread so I figured I’d do soup and salad which isn’t on the menu but they offer it so I figured they could give it to me. And they did. And didn’t charge me for it. That’s right, I got a free dinner last night because she probably couldn’t figure out how to ring up soup and salad. Oh well. The soup wasn’t very good and the salad had too much dressing. But, I liked my choice.
So…enough rambling I need to work.
I knew I would. I just had to be patient and eventually I’d find it.
And I did.
I found the PERFECT book.
This book ROCKS. It doesn’t tell you HOW to lose weight — I know HOW to lose weight. It really digs into changing how you think about yourself and your weight and how your weight affects you.
Now, a disclaimer, I’ve only gotten through chapter 2. I would have read the entire thing last night but I didn’t start reading it until 9PM and I was tired and have a lot of work to do today so I had to sleep. I’ll give a final review when I’ve finished (probably won’t be tonight because I have a date with some princesses and a mighty fine prince tonight).
One thing to warn you about if you’re considering reading this book. The author talks about her journey and her thinking behind her weight loss. She classifies herself as a “Former Fat Girl” BUT at her largest she weighed 185 pounds (I’ll be 44 pounds into this journey by the time I reach 185). At first I was a little taken back by her Fat Girl = 185 pounds statements. But, everything she says is ME and before long I was almost reading her weight # as my weight number because what she says rings true.
So, if you want a book that could help you face or address some of the emotions behind your weight loss and how to get past them, this is it. If you need a book to teach you what to eat or how to lose weight this one might not be it.
In the mean time, I want to go read but I need to earn some money today.
Oh, and don’t forget to sign up for the giveaway I posted yesterday. (If you don’t want it, sign up and have it sent to me — I’ll take it it!)
A great friend (and awesome client) of mine has the mother of all giveaways going on right now. Take a peak: Giveaway: Wii Fit Plus & Fitness Ultimatum 2010. But, that’s not it, if you read on there there’s a chance to actually meet Jillian Michaels. Dude, I grew up like 2 miles from Torrance, CA! I KNOW that area. But, alas I’m 1500 miles away now.
So, go sign up for the giveaway yourself, but BE SURE you tell her that Lanel (or Fat Chick) sent you because I want my extra entries for sending you.
Seriously, Jennifer rocks so go check out her site and enter no matter what.
Good luck.
I have so many things going around in my head right now, I know this is going to end up being long, and rambling so grab a cup of coffee (my preferance today is a Mexican Mocha if you want what I’m having) or a nice calming tea, put up your feet and lets chat.
First, let’s get the business out of the way. I’m up again to 207.2. I fully expected it. I had a good weekend but ate quite a bit. I felt OK with most of my food choices this weekend even though I knew I was eating too much.
So, last week I told you I needed to regroup. I haven’t completed that yet, but I’m doing a lot better. I think taking the focus off of stressing about the scale helped me get a better handle on the emotional issues I was dealing with. So, I’m doing a lot better in that realm. I started a book last night (that I’ve actually had on my Kindle for a while now) that is bringing some things into focus for me. Now, I’m only on chapter 3 or something so we’ll see how it pans out but it’s looking promising.
I also have another book that I started that might be good too. Only it’s a paper book and I can’t get myself to grab it. I’d much rather read on my Kindle and it’s not available on Kindle. (Note to any authors who may read this: make sure your book is available on Kindle — you’re missing a HUGE reading population by not doing that.) Yes, I’m a reader. I find inspiration in reading so I go where I find my inspiration.
NOTE: If you have a recommendation for a good inspirational book, especially one that is inspirational in the weight loss front please share. I don’t really need a “how to” book. I get how to do it, I just need something to help me get refocused.
Now, some good news. If you’ve been reading lately you know that I’ve had a lot of family crap going on (my dad’s father and a friend died, my grandma is dying, my dad was really sick…). Well, last Saturday my dad starting feeling better and he flew up here last Wednesday for a visit. That was pretty excited.
But, if you’ve read this blog for quite some time you’ll know that I really struggled with my eating last time my dad came to visit. My family isn’t the most supportive. Well, last week something happened. It was good. My sister-in-law made a chicken pot pie casserole thing Saturday night. I was at the house and had leftovers at my house so when I saw what she was making I just figured I’d go home for dinner. It wasn’t a big deal. Well they sat down and my dad started in on the “why aren’t you eating” thing. Now, you may be saying so what, tell him you are eating at home. But, that’s hard for me. When the family eats together I just expect to eat with them. I don’t want to hurt feelings. So, I just eat. Well, I didn’t I said I was going to eat at home and my sister-in-law chimed in “she’s watching what she eats” and left it at that. I wanted to hug her because she stood up for me.
Then the next night we were eating at her house again and she made soup. She pulled some out for me that didn’t have meat in it. I had to ask, but she didn’t grumble or moan about it, she just said “oh, yeah” and it wasn’t a problem.
So many people reading this will say “so what, that’s nothing”. But these are big for me. This is me owning my health and what goes in my mouth.
This is BIG for me.
So, there you have it. I’m working through my struggles. I’m regrouping and refocusing myself. I’m not doing great on the weight loss front but I’m am doing much better on many other fronts. And, I’m while I’m not doing great on the weight loss front I’m not doing bad either.
