I have so many things going around in my head right now, I know this is going to end up being long, and rambling so grab a cup of coffee (my preferance today is a Mexican Mocha if you want what I’m having) or a nice calming tea, put up your feet and lets chat.
First, let’s get the business out of the way. I’m up again to 207.2. I fully expected it. I had a good weekend but ate quite a bit. I felt OK with most of my food choices this weekend even though I knew I was eating too much.
So, last week I told you I needed to regroup. I haven’t completed that yet, but I’m doing a lot better. I think taking the focus off of stressing about the scale helped me get a better handle on the emotional issues I was dealing with. So, I’m doing a lot better in that realm. I started a book last night (that I’ve actually had on my Kindle for a while now) that is bringing some things into focus for me. Now, I’m only on chapter 3 or something so we’ll see how it pans out but it’s looking promising.
I also have another book that I started that might be good too. Only it’s a paper book and I can’t get myself to grab it. I’d much rather read on my Kindle and it’s not available on Kindle. (Note to any authors who may read this: make sure your book is available on Kindle — you’re missing a HUGE reading population by not doing that.) Yes, I’m a reader. I find inspiration in reading so I go where I find my inspiration.
NOTE: If you have a recommendation for a good inspirational book, especially one that is inspirational in the weight loss front please share. I don’t really need a “how to” book. I get how to do it, I just need something to help me get refocused.
Now, some good news. If you’ve been reading lately you know that I’ve had a lot of family crap going on (my dad’s father and a friend died, my grandma is dying, my dad was really sick…). Well, last Saturday my dad starting feeling better and he flew up here last Wednesday for a visit. That was pretty excited.
But, if you’ve read this blog for quite some time you’ll know that I really struggled with my eating last time my dad came to visit. My family isn’t the most supportive. Well, last week something happened. It was good. My sister-in-law made a chicken pot pie casserole thing Saturday night. I was at the house and had leftovers at my house so when I saw what she was making I just figured I’d go home for dinner. It wasn’t a big deal. Well they sat down and my dad started in on the “why aren’t you eating” thing. Now, you may be saying so what, tell him you are eating at home. But, that’s hard for me. When the family eats together I just expect to eat with them. I don’t want to hurt feelings. So, I just eat. Well, I didn’t I said I was going to eat at home and my sister-in-law chimed in “she’s watching what she eats” and left it at that. I wanted to hug her because she stood up for me.
Then the next night we were eating at her house again and she made soup. She pulled some out for me that didn’t have meat in it. I had to ask, but she didn’t grumble or moan about it, she just said “oh, yeah” and it wasn’t a problem.
So many people reading this will say “so what, that’s nothing”. But these are big for me. This is me owning my health and what goes in my mouth.
This is BIG for me.
So, there you have it. I’m working through my struggles. I’m regrouping and refocusing myself. I’m not doing great on the weight loss front but I’m am doing much better on many other fronts. And, I’m while I’m not doing great on the weight loss front I’m not doing bad either.
17 November 2009, 10:58 AM
already a kindle snob huh?
i’m like you, definitely have to have inspiration to pick the book up. then i’m hooked.
and i’m glad that you were able to eat with your family!
17 November 2009, 1:08 PM
This journey is not only about weight loss but a whole gammit of things. Congrats to you on your successes this weekend with your family.
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18 November 2009, 4:54 PM
Don’t belittle your progress: you should be very proud of yourself! I’m glad your sister-in-law stuck up for you, too.
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